But I Can't Anymore

I want to tell you everything
But I can't anymore
I want to tell you what I'm feeling
But I can't anymore
I want to scream it in your face
I want to lie in your embrace
But I can't anymore
I want to sit beside you in your backyard
But I can't anymore
This is so goddamn hard
And I can't anymore

Who knew a single kiss could shake us
That one month later I’d be forced to readjust
Never send a message, but I'm dying to
Can't stand to look, but I can't keep my eyes off you
Acting petty for a reaction
But you don't flinch, not even a fraction
Anxiety consumes me – you're lying with her
You're so clear to me – to you, I'm just a blur

I’m spending half my time defending you
You don’t show that you care, but I know you do
The way you have been acting
It’s all so counteracting
And I end up pissed
Not feeling missed
Fucking begging for you to talk to me
Hoping your answers will set me free

Because I'm sad, dear
And I wish you were here
I was falling deep into those eyes
The no sugar coating, no lies
I was falling for that smile
Thought it was mine for a while
And oh god, that laugh you do
And the face you make when you're amused
It may be corny but it's true
I am enamoured of you

I want to tell you everything
But I can't anymore
I want to tell you what I'm feeling
But I can't anymore
I want to scream it in your face
I want to lie in your embrace
But I can't anymore
I want to sit beside you in your backyard
But I can't anymore
This is so goddamn hard
And I can't anymore