After

I still twinge when I see you
My heart still flutters at your voice,
Yet I know I can't have you
All because of one choice.

One stupid choice was all it took
And I've lost you for now.
When you told me I shook
And didn't understand how.

Why did I do this?
Why was I so scared?
I even prevented a kiss
That we could have shared.

I made up excuses
And hid my feelings
For fear of being refused
For fear of someone truly seeing me.

I am so sorry that it took seeing you go
To finally admit what I knew
Even all those months ago.

I know it seems childish
And maybe even stupid,
But I can't help but hope that someday
I'll get a second chance
To make this right.

Because hunches and theories cannot replace
The chemistry that flooded through
That space between us.