Haikus for the Weary, Dreary, Disordered and Forgotten

caffeinated. numb.
all the desire has left me
unrestful slumber

color grey. dim light
I let the hours pass by
they mean nothing now

realizing now
that I am blank, desolate
emptiness surrounds

I am complete trash
slowly rotting to the core
waste, and nothing more

I'm sorry, I suck
I stare at your text message
not replying still

notifications:
none. nobody really cares
what did you expect?

"self destruction is
such a pretty little thing"
romanticizing

under the covers
headphones blasting Bon Iver
not coping today

cut myself shaving
accidentally on purpose
let it wash away

people say I'm shy
"I'm better at listening"
I hear myself lie

words I dare not say
I let them come spilling out
at night, all alone

hi, I'm Second Best
daddy always loved me less
now I'm just a mess

selflessly selfish
always putting others first
no one else to blame

wishing I was zen
nothing but a fucking hack
writing lame haikus