Selfish

I’m sorry, dear
If you need me, I’ll be here

The person I've been these last few months
It's not the person I was once
I've always been stubborn, I've always fought
For the things that I wanted most, right or not
But, in the past, I knew when to quit
When to take a step back and sit
Reflect on the situation and do what was best
For the opposite party, I'd put it to rest
Until you
Oh, it’s true,
I’ve been selfish
And maybe a little devilish

I’m sorry, dear
I didn’t mean to feed your fear

I’ve wanted to say I’m sorry for so long now
But I couldn’t stop pushing, I didn’t know how
Or maybe most importantly, I didn’t want to
Couldn’t bear the idea of giving up on you
The way we worked, despite the odds
How we are to each other, no need for facades
You’re so fucking special
And, to me, you’ve never been anything but gentle
I should have been the same in return
You deserve only happiness, but I gave only concern
I got a taste for what we could be
And let it consume me

I’m sorry, dear
It seems I listen, but never hear

There’s no excuse for how I’ve been behaving
Your time and effort, I’ve been dissaving
I was so caught up in what I want, I didn’t consider what you need
So, from my efforts, you have been freed
As it’s become painfully apparent that what you need is not me
And it never will be
No matter what you’ve said before
Or how much of you that I adore
Or what I do to garner your attention, your affection
Or how I love your every imperfection
I shall respect your decision, remain only your best friend
I’ll aim to be someone on which you feel you can depend

I’m so sorry, dear
I hope the damage isn’t too severe