Death

I'm an ungrateful prick,
I can't get over this sickening feeling,
Of being stuck deep,
In a black hole,
Forever being sucked in,
By the endless dark,

I just want to go home,
But I can never find it,
I constantly hope for a place,
Where guilt and anguish disappear,
And serenity and peace find me,
But I think its over for me,

I had the time of my life last night,
Screaming my heart out,
But still I'm slowly dying,
Emotionally, I'm going under,
I can't do this anymore,
I just want to end my life,

Every second seems like a year,
Every breath is another mistake,
Why do I have to battle with this,
Why can't I shape up,
And move on,
Why do I have to live like this,

I often fantasize about my death,
Then I cry thinking of the people I'd leave behind,
I can't take it,
I'm breaking down,
I'm fading away,
I've lost my mind,

No significant other,
Living off my parents at 21,
Drug addicted,
A push over,
A weak, pathetic waste,
Why am I still here?

Its time to die,
Its time to let go,
Its finally time to end it all,
All this hurt I feel,
I can't do it anymore,
I simply am too damn tired,

So goodbye everyone I love,
Goodbye to my family and friends,
To all the people who worked so hard,
That tried so hard to keep me here,
That tried to keep my head up,
When all I saw was the devil creeping up my skin.