Anxiety

It's becoming crippling,
infuriating, and agonizing.
My head is caving in. Chest pain.
I wonder, am I going insane?

Said something stupid but I can't rewind.
Can't breathe. Gotta keep my feelings confined.
Can't stop. This is all too much. But I promise I'm fine.
Stay distracted. Sleep just to pass the time.

Unmotivated. Confused. How do you really feel?
You're different today. Was any of this even real?
You kissed me. This must mean that it was just me.
It's my head. I must confess, my logic is hard to see.

Lazy, feeling lately, like everyone around me is waiting.
I'm failing. Losing grip, while they keep on degrading.
Can't concentrate. Where'd that go? Why am I always on my own?
Can't get up. They're watching, so I just keep staring at my phone.
Another bad day, but they don't want to hear.
Besides, I don't want top be another problem for them to bear.