Wife

I want to be a wife someday
I want to be the center of someone's world and he'll be the center of mine
How much time will it take till they realize I'm not good enough?
Will it be a week or two? Two months? A year? Before I'm tossed aside and you find out our goals are different
Or will you hang on in a cloud of love, confusion, and ambiguity
A toxic flurry of shouts and accusations followed by a bandaid
You have no plans to get a place with me, no plans to marry me, no plans to have children with me yet you want me still
You want things to stay the same, never change, is this deranged?
Is this selfish of you?
Is it terrible of me for questioning you when I love you so much, when you're my world
Should I cease having dreams? Is it worth it to be with you?
I thought I could be happy with just you
"Marriage won't change how I feel about you, we don't need it." you told me this but I still want it
But not from you
I will find someone who loves me and he will marry me someday
He will propose to me and it will be more magical than I've dreamed
I just need to believe