I'm Still Here

From all the shit I've been dealt,
Or the stuff I've done to myself,
From everywhere and everything,
I'm still here,

Holding on,
By a small thread,
Being thrashed around,
By the violent storm surrounding me,

Everyday has been a struggle,
For about a decade,
Everyday I think of suicide,
And where life could leave me,

I've looked at semi's passing by,
Trees that I could tie a knot on,
Chemicals to rip me apart,
And glass and mirrors to shatter,

Everyday I look upon myself with hate,
With disgust and anger,
Who I am,
What I've always been,

But I'm here,
I'm still here somehow,
After all the attempts on my life,
I'm. Still. Here.

I have my family,
Some close friends,
Some people to hold onto,
Some people that make life more,

More than just a dark maze,
That I can't find an exit,
To any light that hasn't pierced through,
To any hope that I haven't found,

I hope one day,
I can see myself as you see me,
I don't know how you see it but,
I swear man,
I'll just keep trying.