This Is It

The darkness came and never left.
I can't wait to take my last breath.
But I think I'm going to take you with me.
There's no way you get off that easily.
I've thought of different ways to take your life.
No worries hun; I'm alright.
But you'll never see it coming baby.
I told you not to fuck with me.
When you wake up to your limbs tied down,
I get some water and watch you drown.
Or maybe I'll make cuts all over you body.
Make you bleed til you lay there like a zombie.
All your tears and screams of pain.
God it's making my demons go insane.
I never thought I'd enjoy this so much.
I can't believe you became my crutch.
Now let me make one final gash.
I'll finish your life with a quick slash.
You look so nice laying there dead.
I'm so fucked up and now lonely in my head.
So now it's my turn to take my life.
But i know I'll need more than a knife.
I bought this gun and hid it from you,
I knew the razor, this time, just wouldn't do.
I look at your body laying next to me.
I smile and relax; I can't wait to be free.
If only you cared when it mattered,
Maybe my brains wouldn't be on the wall splattered.