Love or Stupidity?

I feel love I feel hate
I want to feel nothing
How can I take it away
Feelings that I cannot control
How can i make these feelings go
Why can't I seem to leave you dear
The past we had was great
But what I'm doing now is a big mistake
When I sleep all I see is your face
In my dreams
I still see a future with you and me
Am I delusional ? Or just plain crazy
But you're all I can think about lately
Walking down the aisle saying I do
I know it will never happen
But let me keep fantasizing about you
Love is like a drug I'm addicted too
But maybe it's not love it's you
As much as I try and try
I keep coming back
It's like When I take one step forward
I take two steps back
Help me help me
I want to get out
But I just don't know how
Forbidden love is what I would always say
But no more excuses
My stupidity was what made me stay