Rest in Peace

Welcome back to Zach
Back to the ground,
Back to the black,
Back to the tug of war
Its in my head
Its pulling me back
It wraps its noose around my neck
Ive fallen in the cracks

Its hopeless, all life is hopeless
My life is hapless, becoming reckless
The darkness is so thick tonight
I wonder if it will be alright.

Fuck..what else can I do
Finding my solace
In the drugs,
In the booze,
What's it matter anyway..
What else can I lose?
What does it even fucking mean
What is self-being?
What do I fucking care,
When Im my own enemy.

I cant even speak on what it is
What it means to feel like this
What its like on days I miss
Hitting the snooze, I reminisce
Its all fun and games when you dont exist
Forever fading out , rest in peace to me.

Why are you even here
I dont have anything good to say
Even if you get in my face
The words still escape.

What a fucking mess..