White Girl

You said I was the best
white girl fuck
you had

You like me sometimes for the way I ride a dick
and not the words out my mouth

I was attracted to your darkness,
not your pigment,
the souls you snatched by a glance
Those fucking eyes

You won't stay past an organsm
but you stay blowing up my phone after
prying into my every thought
Your family won't like this
white girl
they're wary of this
white girl
I can't blame them because this world is color run and ruled by color hatred
I guess I would hold a gun and glare at me too
They say I'm trouble but have never shaken my outstretched hand
But fuck I can't help loving you

I'm so frustrated
because I see you
And your struggles
That distance is doing nothing more than slitting your own throat though, trust me
I want to hold you and get my fingers lost under your shirt for a good few hours
get lost in your mind
for a few good hours

but I'm just that white girl fuck

that's what your friends think
because you can't admit to them you tell me you love me
that you send me ballads and beg to hear my
sad voice on the phone
telling you if I'm kept a secret
I'm going to lose the small touch my pinky still has on sanity