BPD

It’s the feeling of missing something you’ve never had
It’s the feeling of nostalgia for a future that might never come, or a past that never existed
It’s the feeling of kissing someone you know is bad
It’s the feeling of emptiness inside that leaves you numb
It’s the feeling of longing for nothing in particular
It’s the feeling of longing for everything you’ll never know
It’s the feeling when you don’t know how to feel
It’s the feeling when you don’t know if you ever will
It’s the feeling of a black hole inside your stomach
It’s the feeling of death killing life, black killing white
Husband killing wife, machete killing knife
It’s the feeling of being a book, because you’re either white or you’re black
Because they read you and then put you back
Because you’re used to fill what others lack
It’s the feeling of sadness that goes beyond sadness
It’s the feeling of everything and nothing
All at the same time