So Much Darkness, It's All I See

You'll never know, and I'll never tell.
Share a secret? This world is Hell.
Open your eyes and you might see,
That evil doesn't stay in dreams.
It festers and pesters and pokes at scars.
It finds wounds that you thought were gone.
There's evil in you. There's evil in me.
But shit, I embrace mine, let it walk free.
I give it a voice and a little free choice.
It takes over my head and won't stop til I'm dead.
Sometimes i think, how did this happen to me?
I was such a good kid, with high hopes and big dreams.
But then Evil found me, took over my mind.
Over the years, I've slowly gone blind.
Now everything is dark, but lit up crystal clear.
This evil is mine, each day more severe.
It make me do things that I don't want to do.
Like cut up my body and puke up my food.
It makes angry, as my wrist turns to shreds.
It make me cry and want to be dead.
It's been so long, with just Evil and Me.
Our minds are now one, like old maple trees.
So now as Evil is growing, ever so strong,
Won't someone please help, before I am gone?
But even worse, what if I killed you?
The thought of doing it isn't brand new.
So many horrible things that cloud up my brain.
Taking over my life, causing me pain.
I can't wait for the day, I finally say goodbye.
Because for as long as I remember, I've wanted to die.
So while I love you more than life,
I think I'll kill us both and end the strife.