I Am From

I am from ripped clothing, from duct tape, and potty chairs.
I am from a run down neighbor, a lot of crime because no one is good.
I am from fake family photographs, from never-have- your-backers, from Gibbs' and Welton's.
I am from the cycle of abusers, and lovers.
From "do this or else", and "your in trouble".
I am from Catholicism or no religion at all.
I am from mercy hospital in Coon Rapids, Georgia, and Ohio, with mini corn dogs and microwave T.V. dinners.
From my little brother holding onto me for dear life, to my dads cooking, and my mother's regular shutdowns.
I am from my mother's womb, and a beaten up house in Anoka.
I am from anger, hurt, and disappointment.
I am from low-income, trauma, and wrongdoings.
I am from drugs and alcohol, life to death.
I am from selling our bodies, to self hate.
I am from foster homes and treatment facilities.
From praying to God to worshiping false idols.
I am from watching our backs to being beaten to a bloody pulp.
I am from self-harm to attempting suicide.
From popping pills, to getting drunk with my dad.
From living in a bad place to running away.
I am from having no one to turn to, and only having myself.
Now I am from clean clothes, soap, and a clean bathroom.
I am from a nice neighborhood, where neighbors look out for one another.
I am from a loving family, and people who genuinely care about me,and our last name doesn't hold a curse.
I am from behavioral turnarounds, and a real loving connection.
I am from "don't worry we will help you" to "I'm here for you".
I am from trying to attend church more frequently, to trusting in God.
I am from no more hospital visits to family outings.
I am from trusting in my family, Matt's cooking, and my mother's validation.
I am from my mother's hugs to a nice warm home.
I am from trusting, loving and affectionate.
I am from low-income but still making it.
I am from drug-free and sober, from trying to stay alive.
I am from cherishing my body, to self confidence.
I am from staying out of treatment to starting DBT.
I am from believing in one god, and staying strong in my faith.
I am from trusting I am okay, to taking caring of myself.
I am from zero self-harm, to no thoughts of suicide.
I am from stopping my addictions to conquering my fears.
I am from a good healthy environment, to trying to stay stable.
I am from having my family to confide in to having so many more supporters.
This is how I am now compared to then.
There has been so many challenges and changes, and the hardest part is getting accustomed to them.
But hey I guess This is growing up.