Hide and Seek

I count to Twenty

One- I wonder who I am
And where I will go

Two- but I find myself pondering
the thoughts of the time I was

Three- when a time was innocent
and blissful, be

Four- I experienced a heartbreak
so strong it took

5- years to rocover from..
It hurt like

Six- bricks on top of my chest
I could not breathe like the kiss
you stole from

Seven- minutes in heaven in that closet
at that party I was supposed to leave at

Eight- o'clock but you convinced me to stay
and I stayed, but who knew heaven would later
be described as the

Nine- circles of Hell that you put me through
I did not realize I would cry for you

Ten- times too many at

Eleven- at night, when the dark consumes me
And I lay in bed convincing myself

12- things I love about you
and how that makes

13- things to hate about myself
And I look at your face and I count

14- freckles that align with my eyes
Eyes that have been only for you since I was

15- and I met you for the first time
I would make

16- phone calls and eventually
you would not answer

17- voicemails of tears that
would not be heard

I must have screamed louder than

18- church bells ringing at once.
It felt as if I was drowning with

19- tons of water in my lungs.
and again I could not breathe like

20- thick rings of smoke swallowed me whole

I am searching for you
But will you come and find me?