Monster

Self-medicating upon waking
Merely trying to get through each day
One pill at a time
This is my life
No longer able to keep my urges at bay.

The sole purpose of my being
As I remove my limp body from this unkept bed
Is to withstand yet another day
Tolerating the neverending uncertainties
And struggling to overcome burdens which lie ahead.

A future bleak
Self worth gone
Goals non-existent
What did I do?
Where did I go wrong?

A continuous battle to establish an identity
This image in the mirror
I do not know
The longer this poison courses through my veins
More forceful the monster inside me will grow.

A frail body cries out for recuperation
Begging for a taste of rejuvenation
Painfully screaming for release
To only let go of this deadly venom
Would give my weeping body inner peace.

My objective clear
Understanding what I must overcome
Seeking the willpower
I yearn to take back control
Any excuse for failure, there can be none.

Unearthing strength from deep inside my soul
Recapturing the courage from within
Only time will tell
If I can defeat the monster
Or if I will continue to give in.