Frantic Mind
Promised I'd never go through it
But yet here, I sit
Heart racing, stomach aching
Wondering what I'll be facing
Was it all a lie?
Were things hidden this whole time?
I'm sick and weak
It's only his love I seek
What do I do, what do I believe?
What can any of this achieve?
All I want is to be loved
But instead my feelings are shoved
Shoved to the side like they're nothing.
I just want to be worth something.
How do I know, how do I deal?
Is anything he said, promised, even real?
I can't feel anything but panic
Laying here as my mind goes frantic
Waiting to wake up, for it to be fake
I'm not sure how much I can take
Why would he do this to me?
After everything he promised we'd be.
Does he even want us, his family?
Or is he unhappy and bored with me?
But yet here, I sit
Heart racing, stomach aching
Wondering what I'll be facing
Was it all a lie?
Were things hidden this whole time?
I'm sick and weak
It's only his love I seek
What do I do, what do I believe?
What can any of this achieve?
All I want is to be loved
But instead my feelings are shoved
Shoved to the side like they're nothing.
I just want to be worth something.
How do I know, how do I deal?
Is anything he said, promised, even real?
I can't feel anything but panic
Laying here as my mind goes frantic
Waiting to wake up, for it to be fake
I'm not sure how much I can take
Why would he do this to me?
After everything he promised we'd be.
Does he even want us, his family?
Or is he unhappy and bored with me?