I Live on Day Dreams

Is this what peace is like
What would have been in that other  life
But this .. this just isnt me
Not without all my pstd and the fuckery

The norm isnt mine to keep
And these scars run too deep
Its sad because its hard to believe
That i deserve to be happy

I can only feel alive when i write
When i put my thoughts to ink
And when all hope seems out of sight
I can finally breathe again and think

About that life we could have had
Those memories that never came to pass
Im always dreaming about that non-existent happiness
Because i know deep down we were never meant to last

So look into my eyes one last time
 and tell me some pretty white lies
Like how everything will be okay and we'll find a way
Too bad that's never today.
I want my mind as far gone as i can get it
This is pure denial and to truth i will never submit