Alphabet Soup

I want to write a poem that mentions only my name
Because lately I have trouble separating myself out
I have been trying to reconstruct myself like I am
Alphabet soup, except someone stole all the vowels.

I am trying to figure out my own recipe
Except sometimes I mix things salt and sugar
And before I can even try to fix it, my pot boils over

It is getting harder to read that card that is wet and stained
With only my grandmother's script telling me what to do
It seems I can't figure out the difference between me and you

But I have dumped you all into the waters within me
And like sugar, you all swirled around to become one drink
Except I think I mixed up the sugar and salt once again

I want to write a poem that mentions only my name,
Because I don't really care if its salt or sugar water,
I want to drink myself up and leave behind nothing else
But a recipe card in my script that is titled: 'self love.'