"Do Me a Favor and Stay Still While I Aim at Your Heart"

I’ve been running my whole life, I can’t trust anything else
This is all I’ve known so far, I have always lived on edge
There’s this twist above my heart and it’s marring all my face
It’s branded within my mind, interwoven with my name

I’ve known from an early age, consequences of half-truths
Those I trusted with my faith only wanted me till noon
And all that I had, I gave; not a single breath to lose
But the takers run away when they take enough from you

I feel used and I feel rage, how could I be so naïve?
It’s said people still can change; well, they surely can indeed
How unfair is this one fate where I lose and they can win
Family’s more than a name but they’re far less than a dream

So betrayal, I know real well since the starting of the dawn
This is why I let the ringing bells warn me of being used, a pawn
The downside is that those same bells ring at odds with the good times
So, at long last I’ve forgotten what it takes to keep them quiet

Then I fail and fall again, it’s history on repeat
Not a lesson I can learn, but a barrier to defeat
But for quiet times I yearn, I always feel incomplete
I am used to wrath and pain, but I’ve yet to experience peace

This time around I have found a new reason to be scared
I feel myself getting bound to a feeling I can’t escape
It is distant as the clouds and as fierce as a new change
It is beautiful and loud and as terrible as pain

Release me from this strong hold that you’ve got on me, I beg
I’ve never felt this before, but here, you surprise me again
It threatens to leave a hole, when you leave, within my chest
I struggle against the horror of what seems like second chance

I keep running on this path, I have been all on my own
But you keep running behind in this play of deer and wolf
I wish you would catch me fast, you and me know how it goes
So please, take aim at my heart, but don’t miss the single shot