V Is Veeenting

A prison.. no, prison is safe
This is hell, this is alienation
I'm not allowed to feel anything
My words, my feelings, are weapons to be used against me

No one is gonna save me,
No one will help me
Its just me, only me
I must love me because at the end of the day
No matter if I'm alone or in a crowd
Its just me and my thoughts
And the shitty voices in my head
The anxitey it taunts

Always the scared and frightened child
Its just your victim complex
Or is it really a series of coincidence
That my life is really pure shit
I rolled the dice and drew the cards
Its all jokers and snake eyes

I'm not even allowed to die
Or cope by writing the words
My greatest love, my greatest enemy
Every day a new torture and a new punishment
The greatest challenge is not to react
Dont scream, don't fight back
He'll use it to say you're crazy
Even if he does instigate me

Please help me.
Isolation
Pain
Why was I meant for this life?
I trade everything to be a normie.
But the scariest part is I am
I'm in the majority..

I wanna get lost in the crowd today
I want them to send out a search party
But I hope they never find me
Please .. let me escape
My beautiful home is gone
Scared and scorched with our twisted fights
Leave me here amongest the thousands
In a crowd I'm alone but at least its my choice
At home... isolation.

5 millions lives and I had to have this one
Its not so bad little privledged girl
There is so much worse
But worse phsyciallity
Doesn't make up for my lost mentality

I'm tired of crying
Forever yearning for family
Forever wanting my daddy
Forever lonely

I wish my feelings weren't so edgy
Then someone would take them seriously
Poor pretty baby, cry
Just another sad verse, another sad girly
Making up twisted lies for a pity party

Paranoia is what he's engraved in me
Trust no one is what he will teach me
Take advantage of my naviety
and burn my last shred of innocence, that's true love honey.