Suicide and Eternal Peace

As I struggle to maintain my life
I wish I could end it by using a knife,
Why should I continue living in this miserable existence?
When I die I want everyone to remember me
Hopefully I will not enter the underworld
There's another way to eternal peace,
Without committing a ultimate sin
Like death strikes upon my skin,
The blood, bones, organs and muscles from my body will cease to exist
Nobody loves me in life so I shall find eternal peace in death
People at my funeral will weep tears of sadness,
As my spirit drifts away from this universe.