Kaleidoscope

Breathe
In
Out
In
Out
Take another sip.
-Stop-
Up
Down
Up
Down
I can barely think.

How did it come to this?
I'm self-destructing...

A fake smile on my lips
Tells the lie that I'm okay
In this kaleidoscope
My mind is breaking.

But I guess I deserve
To die like this - alone
So it's okay.

I thought the choices I've exploited
Led me to this
Natural conclusion.

Maybe the voices I'm ignoring
Can explain and
Clear up this confusion.

Breathe
In
Out
In
Out
Take another sip.
-Start-
Up
Down
Up
Down
Perhaps now I'll see.

What can I make of this?
Signal distorted...

With a flutter and a skip
I peer into the future
Through the kaleidoscope
My eyes are making.

So perhaps I deserve
To live like that - happy
And it's okay?

Through all the thinking and the linking
I can see now
I have the resources.

Maybe the pictures I'm perusing
Hold a great truth
That I've been ignoring.

It's okay -
Maybe it's really going to be okay.