Sorrow Slave

Who says I cant be mine..
Is it something just and divine
I want to know the man behind the mask
And now is the time to find him

I have shed tears, sweat, and blood..
Just to stand where you stood..
I may not be as strong,
But I am in this for good.

I have clawed my way from the primordial muck
Just to say my own name without disgust.
My atrophied veins beat and sputter dust..
Yet, like a well-oiled machine, I cannot give up..

I have pounded at the Earth..and scratched at the pain..
I have given parts of me that I may
never see again
I have screamed to the Heavens in search of your name
Yet you bleed me dry when I try and have nothing to gain..

The systematic undoing of everything I know..
You are fucking determined to see me slow.
I will not succumb to these horrors you show.
Take me to your grave and Ill torch it to ashen snow.

Uughh..Im pissed off now more then ever,
You constantly shit on my endeavors
And you have it called "bestowing strength"
I have nothing left and you are at the end of all roads.
I will have your head for leaving me ALONE

24 years and going undead
You found your home inside my head.
I must wrap my fingers around your throat..
And force you to see why I am not dead.

Ive had with this shit!

You have taken this far enough..
My life is a horror movie to you..
And life is very fucking long.
You have no desire to sing along
To the mad chorus bestowed from you..
Then I will sing alone.
And cast you from your shit covered throne..

The notions of your sickening way,
Have me crawling out from my grave,
I despise you and all you had gave,
Call yourself a savior, cherish your nave..
If this is redemption..
I have no fucking desire to be saved..

Insurmountable yet unaccountable
If this pain is supposed to be your will..
I laugh in the face of those
Who choose to follow you still..
I cast aside the burdens you have attatched to me.
They have done nothing but caused me faliure, doubt, despair, anger, bitterness and all..

I am fucking sick of being your pawn..
I allow it no more..
Take your childish games to the human spawn.
Your name is not welcome anymore..

They said you would lead me..
And lead me you did..
Led me to beleive in human kin..
To trust in others, and to give.

Led me to this world you call perfect..
Yet your plastic people are fucking worthless..
You say it is all going to be worth it?
You're a fucking madman with no purpose..

If there is a God, he plays a childish game.
And I am sick of being his Sorrow Slave..
These shackles will melt from my resolve.
Free me from this "perfect world" you call

Fuck, where's the punchline?
This has to be the joke of ages.
You had me fooled the first time,
So I'll burn these fucking pages.

Only not to call the Adversary,
I have no use for his petty tricks.
It is simply to denounce your name
And be free of your childish kicks..

All you can do is throw a wrench in my wheel
But I dont give a shit because I no longer feel..
Your ways cannot affect me anymore..

If you say, I cant be mine..
Because you're "holy" or "divine"
I will tear you from your throne
Suffocate you and cast you aside..
I have no use for those who stand in my way,
Of truly fucking being ALIVE!