Goodbye

Have you ever wondered what it would be like to die?
To feel nothing? No sadness? No emptiness?
To feel free and weightless as you slowly slip away?

Have you ever just looked at a car wondering how it would feel?
Would it be instant? Would it actually hurt? Would it work?
To know in that minute youre in control!

Do you ever stop and think how you would die?
All the different ways to stop your exsistance?
Do you feel guilt? I feel a wash of relief.

Have you ever thought about who would come to say goodbye?
If anyone other than family would care?
If your friends would blink an eye?

Isn't crazy how you feel so alone but yet theres so many people?
How know one really notices you're not ok?
Alice my dear nobody cares!

To not have to constantly pretend to be okay when youre not!
Its all i think about, nothingness and peacefulness.
For the emptiness to go away!

I never used to understand how someone could feel so bad,
They wouldnt want to be alive any more.
Now, the thought comforts me.

Silence and peacefulness is a promise.
The bliss of nothingness, the calm sky and wild flowers.
The wind in my hair and my eyes wind open.

I fall to the ground, with a thud that just fades with my breath
The voices drift further away, drowned out by quiet.
Ive finally found peace and its perfect.