Different Life

Life is different once you find someone to love
Or so you would think
You would think the thoughts of self hate would disappear
But they don't
The thoughts of self hate turn into feelings of guilt
Guilt because there is someone to love you
Someone to help you but you don't know how to tell them how you feel
You don't want to upset them so you stay quiet
You stay quiet because there are no words on how much you hate yourself
They don't know that the only reason you haven't cut is because you can't stand pain
And that the only reason you are alive is because you were worried for your pets not your own life
Ya life could be different now that someone loves you
But how could it be when you still think the same things you did before