Ashes
This is where I whisper my love for you
a place where sunlight bathes my skin
and there is silk caressing my chest
as if everything is full and bright
as if the warmth radiating from these fingertips
hasn’t long ago faded
to be dusted aside for a need
that was born long before I stood at your side.
This is where I mourn you
where the curtains are drawn
and hands are frantic to bury my body
in this hole left after your absence…
this is where the breathing hitches
and tears strike like matches against my form.
This is where the fire never stops,
where the ashes of what was stays thickly
caked underneath my nails
and i’m still searching for a way to fix
every
single
thing.
Mending each breath we use to kiss together
in a room full of perfume-
the trace of proof
that we held each other in those memories
where I was falling in love with
eyes full of a darkness for the one
you never could forget.
Do you need them?
Do you need them when you cry in my bed?
Do you need them when I am never enough
for anyone to stand by?
Do you need them when I am on my knees,
giving up everything I stand for?
Do you need them when I leave?
When there is no longer a home
for me to come back to?
This is where I ask you questions
my mouth is too afraid to speak.
a place where sunlight bathes my skin
and there is silk caressing my chest
as if everything is full and bright
as if the warmth radiating from these fingertips
hasn’t long ago faded
to be dusted aside for a need
that was born long before I stood at your side.
This is where I mourn you
where the curtains are drawn
and hands are frantic to bury my body
in this hole left after your absence…
this is where the breathing hitches
and tears strike like matches against my form.
This is where the fire never stops,
where the ashes of what was stays thickly
caked underneath my nails
and i’m still searching for a way to fix
every
single
thing.
Mending each breath we use to kiss together
in a room full of perfume-
the trace of proof
that we held each other in those memories
where I was falling in love with
eyes full of a darkness for the one
you never could forget.
Do you need them?
Do you need them when you cry in my bed?
Do you need them when I am never enough
for anyone to stand by?
Do you need them when I am on my knees,
giving up everything I stand for?
Do you need them when I leave?
When there is no longer a home
for me to come back to?
This is where I ask you questions
my mouth is too afraid to speak.
♠ ♠ ♠
Another older poem from High School, this one has a much sadder perspective as opposed to being more of a moving on piece.