False Reality

How can I tell
What is fact and what is fiction
When every word you speak
Is tinted grey?
Every word,
Every sentence
Marred by my thoughts,
My feelings,
No longer under my control.
They twist and turn
Your most honest intentions,
Overthink even the most
Simplest of phrases.
Love turns to hate,
Beautiful to overweight,
And I can't seem to make sense
Of the difference.
Betrayed by my mind,
I no longer recognize
The truth from the lies,
No longer trusting able to trust
Any version
Of this false reality.