We Both Made Mistakes (I'm Done Writing About Him)

I ran into his brother-in-law the other day,
And I knew that he recognized me,
I just hope he didn't say anything to him,
Because I know it'll bring back memories,

I loved him,
I can't ever deny that,
Even if I want to.

I loved him so much,
I gave everything to him,
I thought we'd be forever,
But our time ran up before then,

He held my heart in his hands,
And I held his,
We were high school sweethearts,
Together for four long years,
But things change.

I made mistakes,
But so did he,
He was the one though who turned me into a monster because of mine,
When he was the one who hurt me,
His family hates my guts,
And I'm glad his sister wasn't there that day,
I'd probably be filing an assault charge if she was.

My mistakes were bad,
Cheating on him was the worst,
But he laid his hands on me more than once,
And when I met the man of my dreams,
A light lit up in my life and I was done,
Done with the abuse,
Done with the ignorance,
Done with him.

I broke his heart,
But he moved on as quickly as I did,
He admitted he had feelings for her when he was together,
But he claimed his was totally faithful to me,
I didn't doubt it,
Even if my eyes wandered,
And I made the mistakes that still haunt me today,

I'm here more than a year later,
I left him May of 2017,
And the threats,
And the words that followed,
Reminded me of the monster he actually was,

I said I wasn't going to write about him again,
But here I am.
I can't deny that I loved him,
And I wanted to marry him,
But I would have been trapped in a nightmare if I had,
And that wasn't healthy for my mental health.

When I left him I had no self esteem,
I wanted to die,
I wanted to just jump off a cliff,
But I have the light of my life,
And he now has me,

This is the last time I'm going to write about that boy,
Who was my high school sweetheart,
Who once was my everything,
Because I can't stay in the past,
When I'm walking towards my future,

We both made mistakes,
And I'm done writing about him.
♠ ♠ ♠
This is the last time I've ever going to write about him. I can't stay in the past, but when I received a half-assed apology last November from him, I never wanted to hear from him again. I've moved away from the city we both frequent, but I still work there, and running into his brother in law screwed with my head because he kept staring at me because he knew that I was the one that broke that boy's heart and I revealed what I had been doing the whole time. I've moved on; I'm happy, but I can't deny that I ever loved him.