I Want To...

Nobody Likes to hear things like this.
I'm so tired of being alive.
I just want to die.

I'm so tired of being Sad all the time.
and I'm feeling like I'm useless an empty vessel.

I'm really tired of feeling like I want to kill myself.
Then being too scared to try.

I'm in therapy, on medications, but they don't help enough.

I'm suicidal when I'm happy, when I smile, when I cry.
I get nervous when I'm happy.
Because I know the fall is coming.

I'm tired of my mind, I live in fear of what it creates.

I live in fear of myself because I just want to die.