Porn

They say they cant help it
Its natural
Its normal
Its what they're bred to do.
And we do it too.
But I don't
I don't lust
I have no greed
I can not bare to see other men naked before me.
On screens in the dark
Men pleasure themselves
But why cant they let me be.
I cant play games with chats
because of the men sluts looking for outs
I cant look at my boyfriends phone
because i know what he does home alone
So ill shut it out
but not all the way
ill look in the mirror
and know ill never look that way
my lumps, scars, all too pale skin
its a battle i'm never meant to win.
so again
ill second guess myself in bed
wish my body didn't have to be fed
and above all else ill wish it didn't hurt
because i know hes my flirt
He doesn't wish to harm me
but i cant hide it and let it be