On My Mind 4/1/17

Out of body and out of mind
With my heart and soul entwined
My blood and semen
Shall release this demon
For years I've kept you bottled up inside
In the darkness is where you hide

You called that night to let go
Til this day I have questions
With answers I'll never know
I tell myself I'm alright and okay
Little does she know I've withered away
I stand before you a broken mess today

Your sadness you drink away
Your pretend happiness will fade someday
I know after all these years It's too late
What we could have had would have been great
A friendship couldn't last not even one date
We'll never know what could have been

I see you from afar sleeping with other men
That's fine I only want you to be happy
I'm broken knowing it couldn't be me
I'll never know love because of thee
All your time wasted with exes from your past
Enjoy it while you can it'll never last

I may sound bitter I might be hurt
You're the world's biggest flirt
Miss the good times and the bad
Sorry you'll never know what you could've had
I never said I loved you or said goodbye
These regrets I'll keep until the day i die