Let Go (You Weren't Good Enough)
Waking up, I don't feel alive
How fucked up am I inside?
I shouldn't be here. I'm hurting too much standing next to him.
Breaking up in my empty eyes
Where's the truth to all the lies?
I can't stand the abuse anymore. It's breaking me down so much.
I shouldn't be hurting him, but he's hurting me so much.
"You can't leave me. I need you!"
"I need a break. We've been seeing each other for such a long time.
I need to be alone for a while."
Watch you cry, I felt myself die
Looking for a last goodbye
I'd once burn the world for you and I
"I love you. We have something great!"
I have to leave. I can't stand the mental trauma.
"I have to go."
If I could do it again, would it be alright?
Would he have been a better person?
Am I going to regret leaving him later?
Enough's enough
I sold my soul for tainted love
I gave him everything.
My heart, my soul, my love.
And the waves in the sea
They slipped away just like me
I'm going to break if I stay,
I need a better life than this.
Love was twisted by design
What was hidden right behind
Sometimes fear can leave you blind
I can't leave, what will he do?
What will he do to me if I leave?
Some remember every story
Every inch between the lonely
Every voice that ever told me
Only one could ever hold me
I remember the punch that left bruises,
The kick that led to the bloody nose,
How he held me in his arms tight,
How he told me he loved me,
How we'd be together forever...
But you're vicious now, yeah, you're vicious now
"You and your new boyfriend are fucked up
Enjoy having a fucked up life,
All your friends are faggots,
And you're a fucking slut."
I was dying when I hurt you too
I cried in my car driving home,
Every single night before I left
And the waves in the sea
They slipped away just like me
So let go
You weren't good enough
I have to move on,
I didn't deserve what I got.
"I can't live without you."
Well, he has to.
You're vicious now, yeah, you're vicious now
How fucked up am I inside?
I shouldn't be here. I'm hurting too much standing next to him.
Breaking up in my empty eyes
Where's the truth to all the lies?
I can't stand the abuse anymore. It's breaking me down so much.
I shouldn't be hurting him, but he's hurting me so much.
"You can't leave me. I need you!"
"I need a break. We've been seeing each other for such a long time.
I need to be alone for a while."
Watch you cry, I felt myself die
Looking for a last goodbye
I'd once burn the world for you and I
"I love you. We have something great!"
I have to leave. I can't stand the mental trauma.
"I have to go."
If I could do it again, would it be alright?
Would he have been a better person?
Am I going to regret leaving him later?
Enough's enough
I sold my soul for tainted love
I gave him everything.
My heart, my soul, my love.
And the waves in the sea
They slipped away just like me
I'm going to break if I stay,
I need a better life than this.
Love was twisted by design
What was hidden right behind
Sometimes fear can leave you blind
I can't leave, what will he do?
What will he do to me if I leave?
Some remember every story
Every inch between the lonely
Every voice that ever told me
Only one could ever hold me
I remember the punch that left bruises,
The kick that led to the bloody nose,
How he held me in his arms tight,
How he told me he loved me,
How we'd be together forever...
But you're vicious now, yeah, you're vicious now
"You and your new boyfriend are fucked up
Enjoy having a fucked up life,
All your friends are faggots,
And you're a fucking slut."
I was dying when I hurt you too
I cried in my car driving home,
Every single night before I left
And the waves in the sea
They slipped away just like me
So let go
You weren't good enough
I have to move on,
I didn't deserve what I got.
"I can't live without you."
Well, he has to.
You're vicious now, yeah, you're vicious now
♠ ♠ ♠
I've been having a rough time. I've been having nightmares about the past and as I was driving home the other night, the song Let Go by Hollywood Undead came on my Spotify and it was such a song that related to my past relationship that just made sense to me. All the anger, the stress, the fact that my stepmother brought him up at Christmas. I did use an edited version of the lyrics; I changed words and took out a majority of the song. They're all just cut out excerpts that fit into the past that I dealt with and just to show that I've personally let go of my past with him, I striked out the words he said to me while the italics are all my thoughts and words. It all seems like a mashup essentially, but I'm using it to help me move on.
I can only hope that the emotions get better as I'm dealing with my trauma.