Last Thought

I stand in a room full of friends

I sit in the corner because I am not included in the conversations

I’m their last thought

I sit in a room full of family during the holidays

They always ask the same question

How is school going?

I give the generic answer they want

Then they move on and don’t look back

I’m their last though

I am in a room with people who are supposed to love me but all they can do is sit on their phone and ignore my presence

I am their last thought

I sit in class

I’m struggling through trying to keep up

I try my hardest and do everything I can

Though I don’t do well

I try to get help

I am their last thought

I have always been people’s last thought

I am told if I want to talk I should call

“It goes both ways”

I make the plans

I make the effort

I am their last thought

The hardest thing isn’t being their last thought

The hardest thing is that I give my all

I always make sure everyone knows I appreciate them

I make sure I try even when I emotionally can’t handle anymore

I am their last thought