At Least I Woke Up

I woke up today and I was not okay,
At least I woke up.

I woke up today and I wished I hadn’t,
At least I woke up.

I woke up today and cried as I studied,
At least I woke up.

I woke up today realising I cannot afford lunch,
At least I woke up.

I woke up today knowing you won’t get help,
At least I woke up.

I woke up today wanting to not wake up tomorrow,
At least I woke up

I woke up today and I am not okay.
At least I woke up.
But why?