I Am the Host and the Parasite and I Am Eating Myself Alive

I NEED TO BE here
BUT I DON'T KNOW THE LAST TIME MY TOES TOUCHED GROUND
I'M SO HIGH, YEAH
AND I THOUGHT IT WAS WHAT I WOULD NEED
AND I THOUGHT YOU WERE ONTO ME
PARANOIA ENCASES ANY HOPE FOR LOVING YOU PROPER, MY DEAR
I APOLOGIZED BECAUSE I SLIPPED UP
CHOSE A HABIT OVER HAVING YOU NEAR
TO BE HONEST, I FAIL BEFORE I COULD EVER REACH PEACE
SELF SABOTAGING IS A FASHION STATEMENT IN THE WAY I PORTRAY IT
LIKED CANNED MAGNOLIA MAY MY BEAUTY NEVER GET FOOD FROM THE SUN
MAY MY HEARTBEAT BURST OUT OF MY CHEST
MAY I TAKE THIS BOX CUTTER IN HAND TOWARDS MY ALREADY SCARRED SKIN
SOMEONE FORGIVE ME
SOMEONE TELL ME THAT MY MISTAKES ARE JUST MISTAKES
WHY IS IT ALWAYS THESE CONVERSATIONS WITH THE WALLS
MY VOICE ECHOS FOR MY EARS ONLY
WITH A LITTLE HELP, YEAH, I WILL MYSELF TO SLEEP
WITH A LITTLE HELP I WILL BURY ME

I AM THE Host AND THE Parasite AND I AM EATING MYSELF ALIVE