Don't Bother Calling Me Back I Won't Answer
I love you
I care about you
I miss you
I want to see you
How is it that I believed all these things you said to me?
You made them sound like a promise
How can you claim to care about someone, and not talk to them for weeks?
How can you push someone away that was trying to help you?
I think it hurts worse because this wasn't even a breakup
There was nothing to break
We were nothing
But you promised we would be something
I'm going to come to see you
Remember when you told me that?
Do you remember when we stayed on the phone for hours and talked about things that we had never told anyone else?
Or what about the time you drunkenly called me and cried and I asked you
Why are you crying?
And you said
It's just because I love you so much
Do you have any idea what you've done?
Do you know how your words built me up?
Made me feel like I deserved to feel this way, even if it was only for a while?
Now we don't even speak
It's like we're strangers
And I'm having a hard time because the person who was the star of my universe was now shining on someone else
Before I could comprehend what was happening it was too late
You fell but it was someone else who caught you
And maybe that’s what really is killing me
The fact that I had my arms out and waiting
But that was never enough for you
I was never enough for you
There was always someone else just outside of my reach but comfortably in yours
I hate you for lying to me
I hate that you let me believe that I could have you
That this time was different
I hate that you told me that you had already lost me once
That you wouldn't let me go away again
But I am miles from you and drifting
I hate that this doesn't affect you at all
I hate that you're happy and she is getting to experience the things I was promised
But what I hate most is that
I haven't yet learned to hate you at all
I care about you
I miss you
I want to see you
How is it that I believed all these things you said to me?
You made them sound like a promise
How can you claim to care about someone, and not talk to them for weeks?
How can you push someone away that was trying to help you?
I think it hurts worse because this wasn't even a breakup
There was nothing to break
We were nothing
But you promised we would be something
I'm going to come to see you
Remember when you told me that?
Do you remember when we stayed on the phone for hours and talked about things that we had never told anyone else?
Or what about the time you drunkenly called me and cried and I asked you
Why are you crying?
And you said
It's just because I love you so much
Do you have any idea what you've done?
Do you know how your words built me up?
Made me feel like I deserved to feel this way, even if it was only for a while?
Now we don't even speak
It's like we're strangers
And I'm having a hard time because the person who was the star of my universe was now shining on someone else
Before I could comprehend what was happening it was too late
You fell but it was someone else who caught you
And maybe that’s what really is killing me
The fact that I had my arms out and waiting
But that was never enough for you
I was never enough for you
There was always someone else just outside of my reach but comfortably in yours
I hate you for lying to me
I hate that you let me believe that I could have you
That this time was different
I hate that you told me that you had already lost me once
That you wouldn't let me go away again
But I am miles from you and drifting
I hate that this doesn't affect you at all
I hate that you're happy and she is getting to experience the things I was promised
But what I hate most is that
I haven't yet learned to hate you at all