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thought we had finally hit a break threw a changing point
where trust and love was built
but i was wrong
you choose to go back to her
knowing all to well how i felt
you can't be clean and be together and you KNOW THAT
i should of known you'd choose the easy way
the way you already knew
but your my dad and i don't want to give up on you
and people tell me to trust god but at this point I'm starting to stop believing in him at all
you use to a great man a godly man but you choose to take someone else hand and stray away
and i say i want nothing to do with you
because everytime you come around i get so excited because i get my hop of having you back and then i stop mattering to you
and i wonder if this is how my mother felt
to bad i can't even ask her because she's six feet under ground
you are my dad and you should love me enough to stay clean for me
and you have no idea what you mean to me how much i adored you and wanted to marry a man just like you
always going above and beyond for your customers and for strangers
but maybe thats the problem
and its made clear to me that your son will always matter more to you
i gave you a grand daughter two if we are counting i am on the straight path and no drugs or drinking
and I'm starting to regret the day we met
you know the day after moms death
you were never a consent in my life .
i hated that my mother died but both of you are mentally unstable and you passed that on to me i wish that wasn't true but it is and i regret it
maybe I'm just mad but i can't keep wasting my time on someone who only values his son and what he does is his own choices period
i could of used drugs but i choose not to
i chose to stay clean
my grandmother needs me my daughter needs me
i don't need you.