Renewed

I wonder what it's like to die,
Does it feel alright?
Is it better than
That 9-5 grind?

I hope there's something there at the end,
Forgive me for being skeptical.
I've got my reasons
So I hope you forgive me.

I don't trust you
Because I can't trust me.
I've given up
On good possibilities.

So even as I act like I've renewed my mindset,
I haven't changed at all.