Want you closer

I claw closer, closer
Yet remind so far away.
I left my heart somewhere back in 2018.
Before we were broken
Before a death
Before my mom and I fought without rest.
All I would give for a hug after work
A random kiss on my cheek and flirt
But woe.
We have fallen.
Without a way to come back together,
But all I can ask is why I can still feel my heart ripping, after leaving it behind.