Wonder

I stare up at the night sky and see all the wishes I want to make
I wonder how many of those stars are dead
And which ones are still here
I realize how small our world really is
I keep moving, and wonder

I look at the moon and think of the myths
I think to ask if they’re true
But in my heart, I already know
I don’t ask her anything
I don’t need to

I look at the darkened room around me and remember where I am
This isn’t paradise; it was never salvation
I am just holding onto this world
I pull the blankets up closer
And try to bury myself within my own mind

I think of home and I start to wonder
What would it have been like had I stayed
Would things have ended differently
Or would my life still be escaping my grasp?

That doesn’t matter anymore;
There’s no more need to wonder