Control

I can't control
The sadness,
The numbness that I feel
Chipping away at everything
I've ever cared for.
It rests inside the hollow cavity
Of my lungs,
Weighing down
Every breath I take.
It's like a stone;
It sits there,
Making it harder and harder
To move,
To breath,
To live.
Sometimes I wonder
If I'd sink instead of float,
The numbness leaving me
To drown.
No one else sees it though;
How can they?
They can't see the numbness,
The void,
When it swallows up
Every bit of light,
Leaving me in darkness.
I can't control the sadness;
Instead,
It controls me.