Five Long Springs 2

We say everything we mean
Some of what we don't
Trying honestly,
You say you will
I say I won't
There but absently,
Always and still waiting
for a great love to spill
but maybe it's all swill

so fucking sick and tired of debating it -
perennial love or just polished bullshit?
Can't decipher my daydreamy thoughts
Can't untangle my heart's gordian knots
Don't know if I wanna make you my own
But heaven knows you feel just like home

Just feels like such a goddamned waste
Always praying and waiting in chaste
My dizzy head's about to burst,
Of fever and thirst
If I didn't know any better
I'd say they got us cursed

But hey, I wanna do it anyway
It's been five long springs
Of asking to unravel everyday
For all the trivial things,
Every little visceral thrill,
Leaves me shakin' off a chill

So why don't you leave me your sweater
keep me warm while you leave me to unfetter
and find the courage to don that scarlet letter

Been spending too much time
Trying not to commit that crime
so tired of resisting the urge to lunge
But we could never chuck in that sponge

Thinking it must be a goddamned waste
Forestalling all that carnal taste
Dizzy head's about to burst,
Of fever and thirst
If I didn't know any better
I'd say they got us cursed

Tempted to risk taking it on the chin
and dive straight into that sin
I'll fuck it all, I'll go to hell -
lost control to some kind of spell
with a head full of stars and lust
and a body braced to combust

Can't keep living like this
evading that gamble on bliss
Inhaling all those grievances and grime
I know you're sick of waiting on a sometime;
You're nearly ready to forfeit on the fifth
Startin' to suspect it's just a personal myth;
lead by the nose with a promise of tomorrows

It would be such a goddamn waste
Fucking it all up in haste
But my dizzy heart's about to burst,
Of fever and thirst
If I didn't know any better
I'd say they got us cursed

But you gotta know you mean more to me
Than sentimental promises that'll never be
Just give me a chance for prudence;
keep hanging on to the suspense
and hope it won't kill us just yet
cuz it'll be worth it when we win this bet

just give me a little amnesty
and I'll give you the best of me
after spring's gloom
lilacs will surely bloom