left aloner

i keep screaming for help, at only a whisper
people will ask “what can i do?”
i’m scared i’ll get too sad, i’m scared i’ll do It
it makes feel ungrateful, i had a good life.
my parents, they judge me, but love me.
my sisters and brothers, who would i be without them?
i feel selfish because i want to let that all go.
i hate the quiet, the loud, the simmer.
i hate the pain, the joy, and the content.
i wanna let go, i wanna forget.
the uncertainty of that is, will i forget?
will i let go?
does anybody know?
can anyone hear me?
i’m screaming out loud.
again and again
over and over
left a loner.