Maybe I Should Die

You're asleep,
Wrapped in a warm blanket
And cozy on the couch
While I write down these words,
Suicidal thoughts drifting through
My head.
You'd never know,
If you woke up you'd think
I'm just texting on my phone;
After all,
Didn't I beat depression
Years ago?
Little did you know that
The sadness always wins.