An edited version of the No Title

Sitting in a darkened room
Thoughts racing through my mind
A tightening in my chest
A tear stained face
Panic spreads throughout my mind
Killing all of my confidence
I want it all to stop
To leave me alone
But the words that you've said
Murdered my thoughts
And burried my emotions
I try to get lost
In the music that plays inside my ear
But I feel even worse than how I started out
Cure this plague that runs through my veins
If it's possible
I want it all to stop
To leave me alone
Do I need to be here?
To be alive?
Suicide comes to mind but so many people will suffer in my loss
But they'll never know how much I'm hurting
I keep all of this pain inside my head
And try to forget everything
The hatred, the sadness, the guilt,
The depression, and even the lonliness
But then it resurfaces
And suffocates me
I dont want to suffocate
I want it all to stop
To leave me alone
Some people exlain it as
Broken glass inside their head
Bleeding down thoughts of anguish
And mass confusion
They're right
People who don't understand never will
For they are blinded by
My fake smile and my words
They will never see how much pain I'm in
So all they can do is stand by
And watch my life fall to pieces.