Dying

I can not help it
The way that I act
I can not stop it
The things that I do
Maybe I’m cursed
To scar my cold hands
Maybe I want to
Bleed my pain away
What else can I do?
When my mind is a mess
When nothing makes sense
When I just want to die
I am screaming
And no one can hear me
I am falling
Will nobody catch me?
Does anyone care?
I think I’m alone
Though you tell me I’m not
I know I am dying
And you can not save me
Because maybe
Maybe I don’t
I don’t want to be saved