Ugly As Me

i.

like a little girl
i play with my mother's makeup
even though I have my own
trying to make myself beautiful
just for you
all for you

first comes the powder
for that porcelain effect
the surface that never cracks
and shatters
then the artificial blush
use that brush or that cream
to make it smoother
coz we all know it can never suffice
for the real one

chorus:

then i realize my mistake
and my mascara aint waterproof
i can only stare helplessly
at the mirror
as the colors all bleed into one
reds and purples and pinks and blues
never seen anything so ugly
as ugly as me

ii.

i continue on with my little game
this twisted little trick
trying to keep it up is a mess
its wearing me down
but all for you
just for you

you know the lipstick comes next
to make my mouth smile
when i wouldnt
watch out for the liner
and the curler
because my eyes
don't sparkle enough
and i need them
yours say i need them

chorus:

now i realize my mistake
and my mascara aint waterproof
i can only stare helplessly
at the mirror
as the colors all bleed into one
red and purple and pinks and blues
never seen anything so ugly
as ugly as me

bridge:

you know behind this showgirl
this instant beauty
look around the flawlessness
isn't it obvious to you
how it's so perfect
it's all so fake

but then, maybe you were blinded
by the glitter and the lights
i couldn't blame you
i couldn't blame you

chorus 2:

and i realize my mistake
(ill help you)
and i know youre disappointed
(wash away the pretend)
now im broken, i always was
(im sick and im tired)
to the world
(of masquerades)
as i lie here, the image gone
(it will be better)
of grace incarnate
(stop hiding your face)
never seen anything so ugly
(im not lying)
as ugly as me

refrain:

im sorry you had to see this
something as ugly
as me

though we all know
oh, how we all know

nothing's as ugly as me