Isn't This Beautiful?

Waiting quietly in a white dress,
a pretty pretend smile.
Trying to deal with my loneliness.
Think I'll kill myself for awhile.
You grin and you say,
"Isn't this beautiful?"
Maybe it is in some way
but dying's not so wonderful...when you're alone.
Look at me and say,"I do,"
while blood is falling in place of tears.
You know,I love you
but I've lived lonely these years.

[chorus]Blood falls instead of tears,
I've been lonely so many years,
Blood stained wedding dress.
Misery knows best.[chorus]

Do you want to hold my hand
while I mess up my life?
Walk in blood soaked sand.
You can even hold the knife.
The years hit my window like rain
and you are beside me lost in a dream.
Oblivious to my pain.
I've got it learned down to the last scream.

As tears fall from my wrist
You murmmer,"Isn't this beautiful?"
I know you're not dreaming of this.
Yes,this is wonderful.
I softly kiss your lips.
I say,"Isn't this beautiful,dear?"
My life slips through my fingertips
as I whisper words you'll never hear.